Growing.

It's hard to do, growing away from what you knew.

Hard to explain, even when you try your best, it just doesn't come out right.

Tough on you, hard on others, you hope the choice leads to a good outcome.

Away from what you know, how do you explain this to yourself?

Is something we all have to do.

Sometimes we know it, awarness is in everything.

Other times, we least expect it, it shocks us.

Is what I had to do,

Have to do

To get from here to me.

Where I have to be.

Growing, something, we all have to do.

To Some Girls

To some girls,
Life is like one big surprise,
Think you're up but next you're down,
That's just how it goes.

To some girls,
Life has never been so sweet,
Get the best of everything,
Every choice has great rewards.

But to this girl,
Life has been so far bitter sweet,
I learn and grow so quick,
Can't keep up with me.
Life has taught me not to trust,
To always have a defense up,
Not to ever give in too fast.

To some girls,
The world is always big enough,
Time is always by their side,
Prince Charming on his bright white horse,
Careers that soar to the mountain tops,
They seem to have it all.

To this girl,
Young but only just,
Life is showing up so much,
One minute up, the next cut down,
One thing I've learned,

I won't give up,
Like some other girls,
Settle for second best,
"If what I want does not work out, I'll just give in to whatever comes"
NO.
I won't give up,
I'll push against the grain, defy the odds and prove them wrong,
I may not be the luckiest
But I refuse to settle like some girls.

To some girls,
Life may knock us right to left,
Turn the good into the bad,
Surprise us at the worst of times,
Tell us yes then say no,
But girls like us,
We just won't give up.

Time.....

It must be years by now,
Since I last saw you.

Your old room still as you left it,
Your smell lingers in the air,

Or maybe it's just me,
Just how much I miss your laugh,
What I'd do to hold you one last time.

But I wouldn't want to have it any other way,
Life has it's ups and downs
And I know I can't rewrite what's done.

I love the way I had a chance to love you everyday,
But time changes fast
And I can only be grateful for what I had.

Do you still look the same?
Do you still think of me that way?
Is there a smile that plays across your lips,
When someone says my name?
Am I still that special girl?
The one that got away?
Are we still friends?

But I wouldn't want to have it any other way,
Life has it's ups and downs
And I know I can't rewrite what's done.

I love the way I had a chance to love you everyday,
But time changes fast
And I can only be grateful for what I had.

Sad, what's that?

Sad, sad, sad and mad,
That's what I was,
That's where I have been,
That's where happy memories go to die.

So, what exactly, is sad?
Sad, what's that?

No, I'm not sad, though I've been there before.
Down that long winding, windy boring cold corridor.

Sadness, it sucks you away,
Pulls you under and lets you believe,
Sad is all you need.

Sad? No.
More relived, why?
Because the future lies here,
With every step I take away from there,
With every step I take towards where I am meant to be.

Sad? Me?
Why should I be?
Life is just beginning,
The beauty of it all waiting,
For me, for you,
In this separation,
Life is waiting to be lived.

Sad, what's that?
I don't know it now,
And neither should you.
Sad isn't where you or I should be.

HE IS REAL

I had a pain so deep,
I didn't know where to turn,
I fought it in my sleep and faced it in my days.

I let it wear me down, force me to weep,
I allowed it to make me less than I had become.

One night in its heat, as I cried so deep,
I asked Jesus to give me peace.
I wanted to feel His peace, His love,
His presence.

Unexpectedly, in that moment of what seemed like defeat,
A warmth so peaceful, so great, so vast, covered me from within.

My tears dried, my heart beat calmed and I smiled,
If ever I doubted, I knew at that moment,
My Jesus is alive and yes,
HE IS REAL.

Life as I know it (Here I Stand)

So far down this road, one thing is clear,
I''ll always end up, somewhere, sometime
Along this journey, alone.

With those that I love, no where around to help,
No shoulders to lean on, no familiar voice to cheer me on.
Just me, my shoulders, my voice, my faith.

I have learnt that I have to fight,
In this life to get along,
To achieve, to gain, to grow, to succeed.

I would like to have another fighter,
By my side, to know I'm a half of one, fighting together,
In this life.

But seeing as how, in this life,
No two goals are ever alike,
I notice, this life, doesn't ask me to star in a tag team,
Nor a group, nor a family.

This life, asks me to face it as one,
Take down all my fears,
Stare my troubles in their fearless eyes,
Find my strength within my weaknesses
And share the best of who I am everyday.

So here I stand,
Alone once again,
But this time, alone, has never felt so strong.

BACK!

After my unplanned departure, I am back to writing about life, this life, that I know and I do have a few new poems, lyrics and stuff, so while I draft, thank you for reading, once, twice, however many times and to the lovely 5 followers, thanks!