Soul and Woman

Because you are who you are,
That's enough.
Because there will never be another you,
That's enough.

Because in this life there'll be a lot of questions,
Wrong turns,
Down sides,
Pain,
Regret,
Beacuse that is the road we all walk,
It's enough.

Because there'll be days when he panic hits you in the throat and you can barely breathe,
It's okay.

Curl into me, I promise, you are safe here.

Roll into these arms and they'll engulf you like they shoud.

Cry on these shoulders and I'll kiss your tears out,

Wail to me and I will listen,

But don't break, not yet,
you're getting better,
Don't break, not yet.

Litter the pain in my hands and I'll pick it all up,
Spi it put and I won't look away,
Fill me with the pain and I'll take it.

Just do not break.

Not now, when we are slowly mending.
Not now when your heart is slowly healing,
Not now when there's so much to look forward to yet the past keeps clawing at you.

Don't break!

I'm afraid if you do, I'll never be able to put you back again.

I will try, always, but sometimes, the pain is too overwhelming for me.
The tears are too many.
There is too much sorrow that holding you feels like I myself, am about to break.

So please, while I get stronger, don't break, not yet.

It's okay

Sometimes, it's in the small things.

You need to love yourself.

I am understanding this on a different level.

Not because I don't but because, perhaps, I have never done it right.

I'm starting to understand that it's okay for me to need specific things out of myself.

It's okay for no one to understand those things either.

Silence? That's okay, it isn't a signal of something wrong.

Healing? There's definitely a lot of pain there.

Redemption? Hmmm, if ever.

Me? Always!

I'm like a drug to myself, the only one that knows the perfect medicine at the perfect timing.

It's okay to be in love with my dysfunction. It's okay to birth a new me.

It's okay to be alone in this head or with a million voices all at once.

It's okay to drown it all out with loud music blaring into my ears.

It's okay if that gets me to the next version.

It's okay to share who I am with him and to not expect him to know who that is.

It's okay to be me.

Sometimes, she's all I need or want.

She's home.

The closest thing to safe.

It's okay to be broken and mending. To be with everyone and yet alone.

It's okay as long as you feel it.

Love yourself in all different ways.

It's better than expecting anyone else to know how to love you.

Drown Out the Pain

Put on your favorite songs,
Play them louder than you can scream over them,
Let your soul spill out
As you shout out the words,
Louder and louder,
Get to that whisper.
Let that pain come out,
Let those lyrics heal you,
Make you know you're not alone.

Let's heal that pain.

Shout again, louder now,
Those tears burn through your mind,
Let it all out,
Let those lyrics caress the lies,
Let the pain flood out,
There's no need to hide now.

Let that music take away that pain.

It's getting lower now,
Slowing down,
Your heart is racing,
You're at that moment,
Down on the floor,
The crying is done,

Let's drown out that pain again.

Play another song,
Get up and dance,
Your body knows what it needs,
Release that pain,
Louder, faster, higher,
Let it all out.

Drown out that pain.

All the lies, that you tell yourself when you're not alone,
Let it out, let it out,
All the things you want but know cannot be,
Out!
Every disappointment,
Every fail,
Every last breath that was hard to take,
Out!
Let it out,
While the lyrics speak to you,
Like they know you.
Out!
Drown it all out.

Play that one song,
The one you play in the mornings that helps you get up,
The one that gets you going,
Tell yourself how amazing you feel,
It's gone


For now


Drown it out my love,
At the loudest it can get,
Even when it feels your ears may bleed,
Let it run through your veins,
Drown it out.
So that there can be a tomorrow,
For all your todays.